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Overcaffeinated Thoughts

It’s 1:33am and I’m still up. I’m on my second Monster Energy drink of the day. I’m dog sitting Lily because mom is in the hospital and has been for a few weeks. Dad goes to see her, I take Lily on the weekends. This weekend I’m working on computers for my job, partially because I am stressed, but mostly because it’s what I can control. That’s my coping mechanism when I’m up against something I can’t fight. I take something I think I can control and start wreaking havoc.

I’m also chatting with a friend of mine on Facebook. We talk daily. But with both our lives being a circus lately, we are catching up more frequently just to stay current. He’s been having medical issues, and I’ve been updating him on my mom and mother-in-law, both of which are fighting medical battles of their own.

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He and I were going back and forth on whether or not he wanted to write an article regarding his newest hassle, and it got me thinking. There’s this movie that came out recently, The Meg. It will definitely get it’s own post, because I can’t love this cheesy movie enough. But for now, suffice to say it’s a new shark movie starring a carcharadon megladon, and in the spirit of both Deep Blue Sea and JAWS. Anyway, there’s this great scene where Li Bingbing and Jason Statham are having a moment. I don’t want to give anything away, but basically she judged his efficacy as a hero on an incident in the past that she heard second-hand. Based on a new incident, that she was actually present for, her whole opinion of him changes. Still with me? What’s great is the quiet moment where he looks at her and says something to the effect of, “It’s not easy. Being the one who survives.”

Arguably one of the better lines in the movie overall, but an unexpected truth. You see, I work as a hardware technician for a mental health and addictions counseling agency, and I’ve been very open lately about my own struggles with mental health. Talking about your own struggles tends to open other people up, with the effect that you wind up sharing battle scars and talking shop survival shop. One truth that I’ve found is that across the board people tend to say they’re different after their struggles. They evaluate their jobs, friendships, and relationships differently. For better or worse, it’s an eye opener.

It’s not easy. Being the one who survives.” But damn, ain’t that the truth? I don’t think that we give enough credit to the people who survive every day with bipolar disorder. Schizophrenia. Depression. Anxiety. OCD. ADHD. PTSD. Those are a just a few of the various diagnoses. In fact, there’s a whole book just devoted to mental illnesses.

But part of the problem is that the conversation only seems to come to light when we lose a celebrity. When someone high profile loses their battle. But in the meantime the stigma and the shame remains.

 

It’s not easy…keeping your illness hidden and holding down a job.

It’s not easy…getting out of bed and facing the day.

It’s not easy…trying to keep it together when everything is falling apart.

It’s not easy…finding the correct medication/therapy/coping mechanism/doctor/hospital/shrink/counselor.

It’s not easy…being the one who survives.

But it’s always worth it.

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A Fitting End

This past weekend was a total shitshow. I’m not going to go into it further than that, because the medical issues involved were (largely) not my own. What I can say is that I backslid in terms of my anxiety, but I am fighting my way out. I am guessing the next few days will be rough, but I am toughing it out as best I can.

Sunday afternoon, Tkout and I went on a date to go see Resident Evil: The Final Chapter. Dipper had suggested we take a break from the stress of the weekend and have a small date. I was worried that I wasn’t going to do well, since I have been having trouble in packed theaters. That didn’t happen to be a concern, since there weren’t more than 13 people in the whole theater.

For those readers that maybe haven’t been following the series closely, this final movie is meant to close the franchise and answer some unanswered questions, and clear up inconsistencies between the other films. The film opened in theaters on Friday, January 27th. The Final Chapter received mixed reviews, some people loved it’s action-driven scenes. Others were nonplussed with the offering as the conclusion to the long-running franchise.

I fall in the middle. But that’s not really surprising, considering I do for most Resident Evil movies when I first see them. The plot of this one had me intrigued from the start though, because it was a return to the Hive. Basically, Alice needs to save humanity from extinction, and the answer to that problem (as well as answers for questions she and the audience have had for years) lie where it all started. Below the bombed-out remains of Raccoon City, in the Hive.

PROS:

  • It was great to go back to Raccoon City and the Hive. It felt appropriate, given that’s where the virus escaped.
  • We finally learn Alice’s origin story.
  • How she survived all the previous movies is explained.
  • The visuals were stunning.
  • The action scenes were well choreographed.
  • The movie tied up many previous loose ends nicely.
  • We finally find out the true origin of the T Virus.

CONS:

  • There felt like too much action and not enough plot. I would have liked to learn more about Alice, Wesker, Dr. Isaacs, and Claire Redfield.
  • Where did everyone go?! Luther. Jill Valentine. Ada Wong. Leon Kennedy. Chris Redfield. If this movie picks up from where the last one left off, what happened to everyone?! You can’t expect me to believe they all conveniently died off!
  • How the hell are the zombies running?! When did that happen!?
  • MOAR CREATURES! I was hoping for much more mutated obstacles and hellbeasts.
  • I was hoping to see some of the creatures from the first film make an appearance, only ┬ámore badass and mutated than they were at first.
  • What happened to DC?! In the penultimate movie, Resident Evil: Retribution, Wesker gets Alic & Co. to come to DC for humanity’s final stand. I would have at least liked to see what happened. Even for a few minutes!

I’m a fan of the franchise, so I’m going to go full-tilt fangirl and say that the movie was a blast. I’m extremely glad I got to see it on the big screen, and even happier that it was left open-ended. I wouldn’t mind if the franchise kept going. I know Resident Evil: The Final Chapter just came out in theaters, but I can’t wait to own it! That way I can have a weekend-long marathon with all movies included!